Fuck it- Eamon
^ That song is really how I feel right now.
I always keep thoughts to myself, and I tend to bottle up my emotions... but this time I've decided to vent on this.
I trusted this person, I loved this person, I cared for this person.
and all this person wanted was to use me.
I've truly never have felt this way before. I have never fallen for someone like this, so fast. This has been one of the first times I have ever listened to my heart, rather then using my head, and taking the safe route. It felt refreshing, and liberating.... but that all ended shortly.
I have yet to learn. People warned me about this person, people told me to be careful... but I wasn't. Now I'm hurt, and alone. It's really quite fascinating how such a silly little thing called love can do to one's head. I always have been a stable person, and once I let go of the reins... things got out of control.
I want this person back, I want this person to know how I feel... I want to know how that person feels inside, and if that person wants things to work out.
I don't know why I feel this way. I yell at myself to stop, but finally for the first time... my heart has won the fight.... and it is my heart that will ultimately die in the end.
